Tuesday 21 August 2012

It is normal


"Tak boleh kan jatuh cinta ?"

"Haa assudoh ,awat pulak ?"

"Yela ,kan zina namenye "

"Uitt ,mana ada !Jatuh cinta tu kan fitrah .Islam bukanlah se-ekstrem tu ."

"Habes tu ,boleh lah ea saye jatuh cinta ?"

"Boleh .Cinta nie kan fitrah .Lagipun ,cinta nie banyak segi .Cinta Allah ,cinta Nabi Muhammad ,cinta ibu bapa .Macam macam jenis cinta ada "

"Oh macam tu .Kalau saya jatuh cinta dengan lelaki ,macam mane ?Tak salah kan "

"Bolehhhh ,tak salah .Macam yang saya cakap ,cinta itu fitrah .Cuma jangan fitrah yang diucap menjadi fitnah ."

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So ,that was my conversation with someone .Aha ,maybe fall in love 

C.I.N.T.A atau L.O.V.E perkara biasa .With parent ,we also fall in love ,rite ?

But ,we are talking about fall in love dengan berlainan jantina .You got what I mean rite ? Dania jatuh cinta dekat Dani ke .Kassim jatuh cinta dekat Kasimah ke ...It's oke .Benda nie fitrah as I mentioned before .

Tapi ,kita kenal kawal perasaan tu .Sebab ...
1. Supaya tidak bawa kita kepada perkara tak elok
2.Takut cinta yang kita kejar sampai meninggalkan cinta sebenar kita

Banyak lagi sebabnya ,I just want to tell you only these .It's normal teenagers like me ,like us to fall in love .It's normal .FITRAH 

But ,if we do something wrong ,surely Allah marah .Contohnya ,pakai tudung tu wajib .Tapi ,kalau singkat ,tak ikut syariat ,nampak yang tak sepatutnya ,Allah marah kann ...Niat tak meghalalkan cara .Benda nie kita kena ingat .Kena pegang .Maybe sometimes it's so hard to against .Tapi ,tetap kena lawan takut syaitan dan nafsu menguasai diri .Banyakkan doa ,zikir ,perbanyakkan amalan sunat .insyaAllah ,kalau ada jodoh ada punya ! Allah dah tetapkan ... 

Kalau kita ingat dekat dia mcm mana ?Macam rindu pulak .Kalau online ,mesti tengok dia online ke tak .Lepas tu ,selalu bukak wall dia .*hamboiii ,kemain lagi .rindu bebeno nampak* Kalau macam tu ,cepat cepat ambil wudhuk .Tak pun ,just tarik istighfar panjang .Disitu ruang syaitan nak kuasai diri kita dalam keadaaan kita tidak sedar .Nauzubillah

InsyaAllah ,kalau ada jodoh ada lah .Jangan risau .Doalah setiap kali solat .Kalau dia bukan jodoh kita ,moga Allah tetapkan yang lebih baik .Ada orang kata ,kalau nak doa ,jangan doa nama si dia .Tapi ,doa macam nie ...

"Ya Allah, aku beristikharahkan Engkau (iaitu memohon pilihan dan kebaikan daripada-Mu) dengan ilmu-Mu, dan aku memohon kurniaan kuasa dengan kuasa-Mu, dan aku juga memohon daripada kemurahan-Mu Yang Maha Agung.
Engkaulah yang Maha Menetapkan sedangkan aku tidak mampu untuk menetapkan. Engkau Maha Mengetahui dan aku pula tidak mengetahui. Engkaulah yang Maha Mengetahui akan perkara-perkara yang tersembunyi.
Ya Allah, jika pada ilmu-Mu sesungguhnya urusan ini adalah baik bagiku pada agama, kehidupan dan kesudahan urusanku, maka tetapkanlah ia untukku dan mudahkanlah ia bagiku. Kemudian, berkatilah bagiku di dalam pilihan ini.
Dan andai kata pada ilmu-Mu sesungguhnya hal ini adalah buruk bagiku pada agama, kehidupan dan kesudahan urusanku, maka hindarkanlah ia daripadaku dan hindarkanlah aku daripadanya. Tetapkanlah bagiku kebaikan dan jadikanlah aku redha dengannya.”
Kalau kita doakan macam nie ..."Ya Allah ,jodohkan aku dengan Si Mamat .Aku mohon kepadaMu ." CONTOH .Ada ustaz cakap ,kita macam minta Allah aturkan takdir untuk kita .wallahualam .Sebaik baiknya ,bacalah doa istikharah .
Ingat ,Jaga hati .Jaga iman .Banyak cara yang ikut islam .Cintailah Allah ,nescaya Allah akan mencintaimu .Sesungguhnya urusan jodoh itu ,di tangan Allah .



Sincerely ,
Nur Jannah



Aha ,it's not too late kan ...


 


Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri ,maaf zahir dan batin .Taqaballahu wa minna minkum .Salam Perantauan.I'm not going back to Mesia this raya .Ahaks ,Mesia lah sangat .Semenanjung Mesia ...Babaiii

Tuesday 14 August 2012

My last Ramadhan ,maybe ?




Hemmm ,I don't know why ...Tapi ,saya sangat merasai kehadiran Ramadhan kali nie .My heart sinks deeper as Ramadhan approaches the end .I never feel this before .Maybe this is my last Ramadhan .Who know ?

Al-Ankabut : 57
كُلُّ نَفْسٍ ذَائِقَةُ الْمَوْتِ ثُمَّ إِلَيْنَا تُرْجَعُونَ
"Every living being has to taste death: then, ultimately you shall all be returned to Us"

Astagfirullahalazim ,I don't know why ...After suffering a fever ,I always think about MATI .Always sangat ...Allah ,I'm not ready yet .I still got a lot of things to do .I still do not have enough bekalan to bring along .Sooooo many things to do ,Ya Allah ...Please Ya Allah ,panjangkan umurku supaya sempat aku taubat kepadaMU Ya Allah dan sempat juga aku memperbanyakkan amalan ku Ya Allah :(

Ramadhan will be leaving us soon .So ,how do we feel ? You ... Me ... 
Gumbira atau sedih with this Ramadhan ?For me ,this is the best Ramadhan I have ever had .

In Islam ,sebuah amal even our lives will be determine by how we end it .We know the terms ,Khusnul Khatimah and Su'ul Khatimah .

I am 19 years old .That mean ,I live already for 19 years old .As I remembered ,saya baligh when I was 12 years old .So ,about 7 years saya dah tanggung dosa sendiri .Astagfirullahalazim ...Soooo many sins ,that I have done .Not counted how many errors have been made .How many promises do not kept .

:(

Allahuakhbar ,I don't know why I can't stop thinking about mati .Why ?? Maybe ,I miss mak ayah and rumah so much .Tambah pulak ,this is my very first time celebrate raya without my family .Seriously ,I'm not ready yet to face that day .The day of sakaratul maut .

I'm not ready yet to leave mak .
I'm not ready yet to leave ayah .
I'm not ready yet to leave abg ,kak ila ,kak syoda ,najwa ,che mat and balqis .
I'm not ready yet to leave my buddies .
I'm not ready yet to leave Uteh ,my cat .
I'm not ready yet to answers Mungkar and Nakir .
I'm not ready yet for everything .
I'm not ready yet for that moment .

Do I still have a chance to meet next Ramadhan ?? I'm afraid that I have no chance to meet next Ramadhan...

Dari Abu Hurairah r.a. bahawa Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. bersabda: "Apabila seorang manusia mati, putuslah (tulisan pahala) amalan (setakat itu) Kecuali tiga perkara (yang akan berlanjutan tulisan pahalanya) iaitu sedekah jariah atau ilmu memberi kepada yang faedah orang lain atau anak yang soleh yang berdoa untuknya."

Wednesday 8 August 2012

Dunia vs Akhirat



Last night ,when my friends and I were having our group discussion ,out of sudden ,I'm questioning my friend  ...

" Hemmm ,sampai bila kita nak kejar ilmu dunia haa ???"

" Laaa ,kan kena seimbang dunia dan akhirat ..."

"Tapi ,paham dak ...dunia nie sat ja .Akhirat yang kekal .Nie kita dok belajaq math sampai tension tension ,bukan boleh selamatkan kita dalam kuboq pun ..."

After a short arguing ,ops not arguing laaa ,it's just only our opinion ...no salah no betul ...There's still no the solid answer .Ayah once asked me before I came to Sarawak ... " Nak masuk sekolah pondok dak ?Tak payah dok ligan sangat ilmu dunia nie ..." If wise person pause for 3 second before they answer someone ,but I gave ayah a longgggg pause .

If I can turn back the time just like Doraemon did ,I will say 
Yes ,I do ayah ...
I'm already in Sarawak .It's impossible to turn back the time .But ,I'm still yaqeen with Allah's promises .

Al-imran : 173 "حَسْبُنَا اللّهُ وَنِعْمَ الْوَكِيلُ" - "Allah is Sufficient for us, and Allah is the Best Disposer of affairs."

Yes ,Allah knows the best  .Who know ,maybe my zauj is here in UPMKB .Yeah ,who know ...  

Back to the topic ,as we know ...this world only a temporarily .Many of us know that this world is just a temporarily and akhirat is forever .BUT ,how many of us that really understand the value of the world from the sight of Allah ????


Between chasing after the world and chasing after the akhirat ,which is more easier but which is more people chased after for ?Which is easier between perform a solat subuh and solving a maths problem ??You have the answer right ...But ,it's still hard to some people to perform solat subuh .


I just want to say that ,please make it balance between the world and akhirat .Seek for the ilmu akhirat first ,then you decide whether you want to be an engineer or a doctor or a FORESTER ....

If you are chasing the world ,then you will get the world only .If you are chasing the akhirat ,then you will get the world and the akhirat ,insyaAllah .

To Allah I leave everything ,every single thing .Anything which is best for me to me ,anything which is best for me to Allah .O Allah ,I seek guidance and protection from You .You are indeed The Best of Planner ,The Best of Organizer .Help me to decide and choose anything which is best for me to me ,anything which is best for me to You...Allahumma ameen ...



Allahuakhbar ,I miss Mak Ayah so muchh :(